Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late i got into bed.

Before I was a Mom,
I never moved or changed my mind even if someone was cried.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been Puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or peed on. I had complete control on my mind and my thoughts.

Before I was a Mom,
I never afraid to anything and cried for anything.

Before I was a Mom,
I can't stand when doctors give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside the body. I don't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could makes me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10minutes to make sure all was okay, to make sure my baby is on his pillow, to make sure he's covered by his blanket and to make sure he didn't fall from bed.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Thanks Deniz, for making me feel how it feels to be a Mom.